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Tuesday, 22 July 2014

Sister And Brother

28th March 2012.

The day our family was complete.

Since that day you two have shared an incredible bond. You love each other so much and it makes me so proud.

When I see you together my heart fills so much that sometimes I think it might just burst.

Sister and brother.

What a bond.

I worried at first. I worried that life with one of each would be hard. That your differing genders may impact on your bond.

I needn't have worried.

Of course you have your moments. All children do.

Very occasionally the two of you can test my patience but, on the whole, you love being in each other's company.

In fact, you don't like being apart and on the rare occasions you are you will always ask where the other one is.

You don't like it when the other one is upset or hurt.

Sister and brother.

What an incredible bond.

You play happily together.

You make up little games all the time and you spend ages playing hide and seek whilst giggling uncontrollably.

You share so many kisses and cuddles.

It's the cutest thing ever.

This week sees the start of the school holidays when you will both be at home with me. I'm sitting here planning out the days to make sure I make the most of this time I have with you both because, as of September, one of you will be at school again and the other at play school.

I won't get this time back.

I need to make it count.

You love being sister and brother.

And I love being your mummy.

My children.

My world.

Don't ever change.

Tuesday, 10 September 2013

A Darkened Room

I sit here in a darkened room.

My back against the cot, I sit here for what seems like an eternity. I don't feel the pain of the cot bars digging into my back though.

I just feel you.

I feel your warmth. I feel your heartbeat. I feel your body one with mine. Just like we used to be when you were inside me.

I sit here in a darkened room holding your tiny head in my hands. Not ever wanting to let you go.

I sit here after calming you down. Cold and teething are not your friend tonight. You love your sleep and it pains me to see you so upset.

It's not like you. You're usually so happy.

You've been so difficult today but I don't mind. I don't mind one bit. For when I feel my patience wearing thin I imagine what life would be like without you.

Without you. I shudder at the very thought.

I have lots to do tonight but it can wait. Me time seems so pointless.

You are me.

I just want to hold you close forever. And ever.

I want to sit in this darkened room as long as I can. I sit here and the tears start to fall. They start to fall because I know that outside of this room there are other mummies and daddies who sit in the dark.

They sit there for different reasons.

They sit there without their baby.

Their baby is gone.

That baby could be tiny. That baby could be fully grown and left home. No parent should have to bury their child - whatever age.

I'll sit in this darkened room for as long as I want. I'll sit and I'll think and I'll be thankful. Thankful that even though this evening has been hard...

...you are here with me.