Why?
Because the picture I posted didn't sum up my week at all. That picture says I had a lovely week enjoying the sunshine with my daughter when, in reality, this wasn't the case.
However, I didn't have a picture of sick, snot, phlegm, coughing, crying, tantrums, house looking like it had been burgled and me looking like I'd been dragged through a hedge backwards.
That was my week...and that was the week before too.
The serene picture you see of MC was taken on Saturday afternoon on a meet up with the inlaws. I can assure you the scene off camera wasn't the same but I'll blog about that another day.
I shouldn't be moaning.
I know so many people who have a tough time constantly. People with really poorly children, people with children with special needs and others. I know I'm lucky. I have two (usually) healthy kids, a nice house, a fantastic husband and so on.
Yes, I have a lot to be thankful for.
I'm the first to admit that.
However, things just got on top of me.
Even though TC is an amazing sleeper for someone who only turned 2 months old on Monday it has been MC who had been keeping us awake.
Last week we ended up at the local hospital with her at 10.30pm one night as she was that bad with her coughing.
I have to admit, whilst she was ill I crumbled. Lack of sleep and her constant demands because of how poorly she was got to me.
Since I had TC I've been quite strong - only having a touch of baby blues on day 5 after the birth. Last week I think it all caught up with me.
I fell behind with my freelance work and I started to panic.
I felt like I was sinking.
The sun was shining and I couldn't get out in it because of the kids. Everyone seemed to be out and about and I was stuck in feeling pretty miserable.
I neglected my blog, I neglected my blogging friends, I neglected my work, I neglected the housework, I neglected my friends.
More importantly I neglected ME.
I think as mother's we always put our families above everything else but if we aren't functioning properly then our families actually suffer more.
This week both kids are fit and healthy (although MC is still coughing at night a bit), I've managed to catch up a little with my freelance work, I have plans to catch up with friends and I've taken a few hours out to go and get my hair done and sit out in the sun a little.
This week is like night and day compared to last.
So next time I feel like I'm sinking I'm going to make sure I try and get some time to myself and remember that things can only get better.
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| Taken 30th May 2012 |
21 comments:
Take each day as it comes. Felt the same way as you before, don't try and be 'Supermum' - houses get untidy (I speak from huge experience!) and yes things can only get better xx
Oh Heather, I'm so sorry. I'm glad that things are looking more positive for you. It's not always easy being a mum...be kind to yourself. xxx
What a gorgeous photo, sorry you had a rubbish week though, it's tough being a mum at times and with work, new baby and not enough me time it can get a bit much! Glad this week is better, must be the car ;) xx
I know that overwhelmed and sinking feeling, and it can happen to anyone. Babies and young children are hard work, and it only takes one thing to tip things over so that it feels like everything is out of control. Everything is a phase though, and just believe that it will get better xx
Glad to hear you're nearly out the other side. Hope the cough goes soon. Big virtual hug for you. x
Oh honey, so sorry to hear you had a hard time last week. I hate that feeling of being overwhelmed. Glad you found the space to have some 'me' time x
Sorry to hear that lovely-those feelings are awful. Hope you get some you time and soon x
Oh my darling. How I wish I was seeing you at Britmums. Just because some people have poorly children or children with special needs, it doesn't mean that your stresses are any less and you must never feel guilty about that. As I ALWAYS say. My cut finger is worse than your broken leg because it is MY cut finger. Take some time out for yourself my love. And by the way you look ABSOLUTELY stunning. Had a baby 2 months ago? Unbelievable! Love you very much xxxx
Glad you are feeling better. I've been the same. I don't feel supported & I'm shattered. I think a good sleep would do me world of good! Although having said all of that Monday was a bit of a turning point & I have felt better than I did seeing friends at the weekend helped. I just seem to spend my time tidying & washing & feeding Bubbles. Here's to a fab weekend and some positive mental attitude to get back on track. Hugs!
It's amazing what a bit of a break from the norm can do for you. Roll on the long weekend...have a great one x
Oh and thank you - it's good to know people feel the same sometimes too. Glad you're feeling better x
Thanks lovely x
Thanks lovely. Hope you're feeling okay - still SO excited for your news x
Thank you for the hug :) x
Thanks C...you're right about just taking one thing to knock things off balance xx
Thanks hun. Yup, I think driving the new car has helped lift my mood ;) xx
Thanks Wendy xxx
Thanks Lou. Didn't you win a Rentokil house clean though? ;) xx
You're good for trying to keep it in perspective but I think there's also a lot to be said for just letting yourself have those feelings and not feel guilty, not feel like you can't have a bloody good whinge or cry or scream. You still have a million of those bloody hormones flying about and broken sleep is hard enough let alone when you've a newborn and toddler to deal with.
I'm not ashamed to say that it took me a long time to settle into having 2 kids - the baby was a doddle, it was dealing with a complex bloody 2.5 year old, the guilt about everything and the whole mathematics of how you split yourself in two.
Your post title is spot on, it will get better. But please don't beat yourself up along the way, you can quite do without that. Go easy on yourself missus X
I was late in reading this because I too have been feeling similar (hence the migraine) - and I only have the one kid! It's amazing that you look so fantastic considering how you felt - indeed I took one of Bzoid and I when I was feeling equally tired and the bags under my eyes were just horrendous! So feel free to let us in on the secret in terms of make-up tips/skincare regimes :D
I'm now going to be a total hypocrite and tell you to look after yourself and not neglect your own well being ;) We all need reminders once in a while to slow the pace down, and we your blog friends and readers will always understand. Priorities, H, priorities! :D *hugs* xXx
Oh my goodness! You must think I'm soooo rude. I've been through comments on this post before but seems that disqus didn't bring a few through so I've missed them until now. How rude of disqus!
Thank you soooo much for this comment lovely it's perfect. I do love that 'cut finger and broken leg' saying.
Love you too xxx
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