Well, yes it is, of course.
But this is a date that will be in many people's hearts and minds for the rest of their lives.
A date when an amazing mother and father should have been celebrating the 1st birthday of their beautiful baby girl, Matilda Mae.
It's not right.
It's not fair.
I've been struggling all week. Not knowing what to write. My heart is heavy and my mind can't concentrate.
I have a book that I write in each day that my best friend bought me. It's a five year book that asks a question each day, so you can compare your answers over 5 years. A couple of weeks back the words read something like "I wish I could stop ____________ from happening".
I wrote 'cot death'.
I don't think my answer will change, even by 2018.
As I look at Tiny Ched, I think of Tilda and everything she should be. Everything that Jennie and David have lost.
2nd May will be a date, just like 2nd February and 7th March that will live with me forever.
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| Pink angel slices for a sweet angel |
We are going to blow bubbles and enjoy pink treats. I'm also dressing myself and the kids in pink and purple.
There will be lots of tears (I have invested in a multipack of tissues) but there will be happiness too. Susanne and I have a unique bond from our journey to Tilda's funeral and back and I know, when I see her tomorrow, all those memories will come flooding back.
We will, as we have done everyday, think of David, Jennie and Matilda Mae.
Then tonight, as the sun sets on 2nd May, I will be lighting a candle for Matilda as her parents say goodbye to their precious little girl in a way that Jennie describes so beautifully.
It's something no parent should have to do and I hope they somehow find the strength to get through it.
It's not just a date. It's a remembrance and a celebration.
Of a short life.
Of a life of love and beauty.
It's also a time to reflect.
Of what could have been.
Of what should have been.
2nd May.
A date that will never be forgotten.
Tilda's day.
Happy 1st Birthday in the sky sweet angel xx
I've blogged before about an auction taking place in memory of Matilda Mae. This auction will be running from 11th May - 20th May 2013 with all proceeds going to The Lullaby Trust (formerly FSID). They help support families, like Jennie's, who have experienced the loss of a baby from sudden infant death syndrome.
There is an ever growing list of generous people and companies who have donated to the auction and full details of everything available will be online soon. Please help support the auction in any way you can by bidding, tweeting, posting on Facebook, emailing etc. Get the word out there!
This post was written as part of a blog hop for Matilda's 1st Birthday. You can view the other entries here:
