It wasn't due to the fact I have grown a hatred for Tesco and their awful customer service. No, it was something much deeper than that.
I was happy deep down and I guess they were tears of joy mixed with tears of confusion and the unknown.
For only 2 hours before the water works started in the cafe, my husband and I had just clapped eyes on this.
I know I announced my pregnancy with my Silent Sunday post and shocked you all (sorry), it's been hard to keep a secret from everyone and we only told our own parents the other weekend. Yes it's been the 'real' reason I haven't been blogging much as I've felt quite rubbish if I'm perfectly honest. Life has been a bit crazy for the last couple of months. There have been ups and downs - elation, happiness, sickness, tears, extreme exhaustion and confusion. Oh and not to mention the whole headache scare last week. Thankfully, as I write this, today is the first day in well over a week that I haven't had a severe headache. I actually feel like I've been reborn (dramatic eh?).
Anyway, this pregnancy was planned. Completely planned.
So why cry?
I can only describe the moment, that exact moment when my pregnancy hunger and craving for meat (more on that another time) led me to stop off for a bacon sandwich at Tesco cafe only 2 hours after consuming my breakfast at home! Yes my waistline (and arse) is expanding rapidly.
I was with Mini Cheddar and we both sat next to each other on the sofa. Maybe it was the fact she was secretly after some of my bacon butty (probably, knowing her!) but she looked at me, put her head on one side, put her hand on my hand and said "I love you Mummy". It was if she just knew.
That was enough in my emotional, newly pregnant state for the floodgates to open.
Being a stay-at-home mum means that MC pretty much gets my undivided attention. In 6 months time that will change and it's going to be a big learning curve for both of us. Back to having a new baby for my husband and I. Having a sibling for Mini Cheddar.
Here's to the journey of pregnancy and birth again and all it brings with it.
That was enough in my emotional, newly pregnant state for the floodgates to open.
Being a stay-at-home mum means that MC pretty much gets my undivided attention. In 6 months time that will change and it's going to be a big learning curve for both of us. Back to having a new baby for my husband and I. Having a sibling for Mini Cheddar.
Here's to the journey of pregnancy and birth again and all it brings with it.
